Assalamualaikum :)
It has been 1 month+ since the last semester has started. I have always feeling anxious, scared, sad and inferior as time goes by. Of course, sebab knowledge yang ada still tak cukup untuk melayakkan diri ini menjadi seorang doctor.
Currently I am in ED rotation. Meeting tons of people everyday be it HO, MO, specialists, all sorts of people with different personalities. You really have to be brave and handle your acts well. Everyday I will ask myself:
'Betul ke aku nak jadi doctor'
'Larat ke nak tahan kena marah dengan superior everyday and depan patients. Kerja menimbun. Ilmu tak berapa nak ada'
'Kenapa la aku nak jadi doktor dulu'
These questions repeat everyday and every single morning in my head. Up until this point, I have not found the answer. I just keep being strong and face the inferiority alone.
Perhaps, one day I will answer it myself.
4 months to graduation, this crucial time to study and just finish the race. There is no time to look back and regret dear self.
